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She..she screams in silence..a sullen riot penetrating through her mind...We...wait for a sign to smash the silence with the brick of self-control---Are you locked up in a world that's been planned out for you? Are you feeling like a social tool without any use? Scream at me until my ears bleed, I'm taking heed just for you--She...she's figured out..all her doubts are someone else's point of view..We...walking up to smash the silence with the brick of self-control--------

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"I'm really not that different, you just made me think so."

What's up?

mood: anxious(again)
now playing: stabbing westward-what do I have to do
vocabulary: unconditional

My yesterdays....

Que paso? - 2006-09-10

Bah humbug. - 2006-01-16

I'm married. - 2005-09-01

In and around the lake... - 2005-07-22

I'll be the roundabout... - 2005-07-11

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2002-12-30 - 3:50 p.m. - Only because I love you, only because I really do.

I'm in a pretty rotten mood right now.

I don't really have a reason to be. It's a justified request. I am just worried I guess that I did something stupid. I'm also worried because I don't want to have confirmed what I have known for years and years. It's like, I was nice and happy living in denial. I was very happy thinking if I just pretended it wasn't there then it really wasn't.

What do I know about it? Absolutely nothing. But I'll know more tomorrow.

I am not looking forward to it either.

Happy bubble. I was never in a happy bubble. I sure wish I could have one right now.

I hate this kind of anxiety. It drives me crazy.

I am just going to go to work and read my book and try to think happy thoughts. There is no use in overreacting when I don't know anything yet.

Wish me luck.

Check you later,

Jenn

Didn't I say in my last entry that I felt badness coming on? Well, this is it.