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2003-08-21 - 7:45 p.m. -
But the beauty of this vision alone, just like yesterday's sunset, has been perverted by the sentimental and mistaken for love.
I kind of got asked out last night. I wasn't really in my right mind, it was 9:00 at night and I was heading to work and had just woken up and I didn't say yes and I didn't say no I said, "Trust me, you don't like me, Jerry says I'm no fun." He said, "That's it, you're just scared, you're freakin' scared." I hope I didn't hurt his feelings. I really would date him, I'd give anyone a chance because I feel you don't know if you might be compatible with someone until you try. There are, however, a few problems: What does he think I am scared of (if that wasn't just a defensive statement), and what does he want from me (Jerry says he's a player). Can I be satisfied dating someone for the sake of going out and having fun fully knowing that there would be no obligation to one another whatsoever? Maybe. I think I could learn a few things about dating and relationships if I'd just stop fucking falling in "love." So now what..how do I bring it back up to find out what he meant by it without making myself look interested lest I be snagged by that characteristic? What do I do about Jerry? It's his friend and Jerry still gets jealous of me despite our lack of a relationship (and for the most part, I him). Ahhh, well. I don't even care. I didn't ask for this. I didn't want this. I am rather enjoying the single life. Woe is me :P Check you later, Jenn |